As I stepped back into the routine of life today (homeschooling, more laundry than I knew what to do with, needing to go to the grocery store..but scrounging for food instead!), I'll be honest, I felt a little overwhelmed and ready for vacation again...and who really needs to go to school anyway :)
I was really fighting the " I can't home school, what am I thinking...this is too hard and my headache has returned...I just want some peace and quiet....they are never going to learn all they need to with me as their teacher...and we are adding two more kids to this equation....HELP LORD" (okay, I think I'll stop as I am sure you are getting the point :) ). I wish I could say these are thoughts that rarely enter my mind...but I fight them more often than I would like to admit. Truth be told, there are many times I feel like homeschooling is an "interruption" and an "unpleasant thing" that I wish I didn't have to deal with. In comes C.S. Lewis with some words of wisdom:
"The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one's 'own,' or 'real' life. The truth is of course that what one calls the interruptions are precisely one's real life - the life God is sending one day by day; what one calls one's 'real life' is a phantom of one's own imagination. This at least is what I see at the moments of insight; but it's hard to remember it all the time."
At this point, you might be thinking...you crazy woman...put your kids in school then!!! I can't :) As overwhelming as some days are, I believe with all my heart (though I often fight against it with all my heart) that this is exactly what God is calling our family to for right now. Please note: I said our family...not yours. God's plan and calling for each of us is not the same...and He will make His plan clear to you (whether it be home school, private school or public school) and He will walk you down that path whether you go kicking and screaming or with great joy and
anticipation! :)
So, the lesson for me today is that their are no "interruptions" just divine appointments given to me by a loving Savior Who knows what I need most to be like Him! Francis De Sales sums it up beautifully, so I will end with a quote from him:
"Accept His will entirely, and never suppose that you could serve Him better in any other way. You can never serve Him well, save in the way He chooses."
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For His glory,
Brook