Although it's been easy for my heart to feel ripped in two when I think about the pain and sadness that is there even in the midst of something so beautiful and precious as adoption (an ever reminder that we live in a fallen world)...God's sovereignty has sown it back together in such a way that it feels whole again...no guilt, no second guessing, no questioning...just sweet peace in God's plan, blessed assurance that nothing happens without first going through His hands first and precious joy knowing that, despite the pain (and is there really anything that does not have pain attached with it in some form or another?), this was God's beautiful plan before the beginning of time.
What is it like being a mommy to two children who have a mother? What is it like being loved by two little boys who also love another? It's humbling. It reminds me that it is not about ME at all. It reminds me that ALL my kids are really not mine, they are on loan to Bryan and I from the Lord. It brings perspective and helps me keep in mind the eternal over the temporal. What is MOST important about every child (and everyone else, too)is their SOUL...not where they have come from, not what their life consist of right now or what they have lost or gained but WHERE ARE THEY HEADED? To an eternity with Jesus Christ or to an eternity void of Him and full of pain and suffering?
The focus of our life should be the Gospel and, therefore, the heart of adoption must be the Gospel as well. Jesus Himself said, "What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world yet forfeits his soul?" Apart from the Gospel we have NOTHING and, because of the Gospel we have EVERYTHING. The beauty of adoption is not that we are giving children a better life it's that we are giving them a Gospel centered life. The better life IS Christ...apart from Him we have no good thing. And, through adoption, we have been given the blessing of sharing these glorious truths with two more little souls...and THAT is truly the only perspective that I need!!!
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